Can I tell you a secret?
Something I would tell none other?
I'm not as powerful as you'd like to think
I'm actually closer to the brink
Than I've ever been before
I can't look you in the eyes
I can't speak any words
And it's not because I don't have anything to say
Smooth back the hair from your forehead
Slide a finger 'round your jaw
Let you know that I just can't
Feel
The smartest are the most cynical
Because they see what others do not
That this world is full of whores and distrust
Sleep worn eyes, so bloodshot
I can't tell you that I truly don't care
But I think it'd be better from here on out
To disregard the pretense that I'm
Like you at all
If only such a place existed
Where the stars shone, every one
I wonder if you'll ever come around
And see past the round face, the orange hair
Because I don't think there's anyone more
Like an onion, with so many layers
That'd it take a lifetime to unravel a few
I know everyone wants to be able
To say that about themselves
That I'm so much more worthwhile than her
And who am I to judge?
But I do understand myself and my heart
And although I don't think you could ever
Learn as much as there is
Even I still have a ways to go
But I'd be willing to let you try
And I would strive to return the favor
And it wouldn't have to be about sex
Because that's truly not why you choose a
Partner
Everyone judges because it's built into
Our DNA but it doesn't mean you
Have to remain that way and it's
Because of you that I look twice at people
And I learned to say words without speaking
And to creep without the floor creaking
Because even though you break your promises
And falter to redeem your word
I can't seem to get over your quirks
Your faults, your strengths, all the way
Down to your spindly limbs
And you want more for yourself and believe
That you can succeed and who am I
To tell you that it's unattainable
Who am I to tell you that I'm unreachable
Parasitic
Entwine your fingers with mine and gently
Squeeze the blood from your fingers
And keep you warm when its cold it's
Not because I don't have anything to say but
Because I am too afraid to say it I'm afraid
It'd turn out too much like this which I can
Already tell doesn't make much sense.
Every waking moment spent in this I want
To take you underground and show you my
Strength my resilience my art my words my
Bones the skeletons I keep in my closet of all
My demons I've killed and wrangled and fought
The power I want to develop and envelop you
Dismally I can't foresee this, dim and distraught
It leaves, just like the seasons, just when you
Finally get situated and if you can't love me
Then I don't know who can